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Falling
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“She will not leave you alone forever, brother. Her love for you will either drive her mad or bring her back here. She is determined as she is beautiful.”
I gazed at my brother angel as parts of me were depositing souls to the Source. But even being scattered did not stop the fact that I heard him and felt the arrival of Brenna in my domain. I knew her loneliness and felt it across time. But I could not answer her. That was why Uriel went. I had shut myself off from the world, from her heart, not out of hate, but love. It was the only way to save her from Michael. It had been excruciating not to answer her calls especially when her powers were maturing and her whole being ached for me. Her safety was more important than my wishing to see her.
“Why do you say that, Uriel? About her beauty? You have never been one to admire mortals.”
“Azrael, she is more than a mere mortal. She is our sister. In that, I see her exquisiteness and the potential of her soul. You shun her only to avoid a war with Michael, but he shall have his war, one way or another. You have protected her from his wraith, but she dares mine to see you. She would have fought me if she wasn't so forlorn. You can see it in her soul, brother. Brenna doesn’t just need you company, she needs you, It is as if she has been starved. I did not even sense the taint of human blood in her. Lift your edict and go to her.”
I gritted my teeth as to what Uriel said. Most of me had returned from soul gathering as I put the burden on lesser angels. Uriel had been right as I kept Michael away from Brenna. Michael’s contempt for her was that she turned me away from the brotherhood, from the way angels were cold and unfeeling and that I loved her. He couldn’t understand how my love could be split between the Almighty and Brenna. Michael never wanted me to ascend, considering I was of demonic origin. But once She, the Source, welcomed me, then Michael had to accept me. Over the centuries I suppressed my vampiric side, despising it and let my angelic side rule my being. When Michael saw that, he put aside his hatred and grew to like me, but when Brenna entered my existence things changed. What I had forced back, resurfaced and she made me face my hunger and my anger. Because of it, I’d almost lost her. Michael poisoned her. When that happened, I had to save her because I truly loved her. After we reconciled, I left Brenna with an open-ended promise. But I’d let time lapse and her think she was nothing to me. As the months spanned and I didn’t appear, her heart ached and all I wanted to do was hold her in my arms with my wings protecting her from Michael’s wraith.
It was interesting that the angel had even developed of the emotion of resentment. Michael had no soul, but maybe over the millennia he had gained some type of free will. Now he had a faction against me, waiting for me to make a mistake. Once that happened, we would war. And all of Heaven would shake.
“Brother it is not good for me to go to her. Michael will destroy Brenna and everything that the Almighty has worked for. I cannot risk a war over my love for a woman, not for a being that is not completely within our ranks.”
Uriel laughed. “Brother, you are Death and can deny taking Brenna’s soul. Love is not a petty sentiment. Human wars have been fought over it. We were created to love. We may not have a soul as you do, but we do have certain choices, certain emotions, and love is the greatest one of all. He gave it to us to encompass us, and reassure us when He is not there to comfort us. Human love is only the echo of what we truly feel. Love is the greatest gift of all. If you loose that, then you loose yourself. You should know this as you have both Divine Love and the human emotion. You love all creatures that you take in your embrace and you love our new sister. To fight a war over such an emotion is not trivial. You just have to remember that no matter what happens, Brenna loves you with all her soul and you cannot push that away.”
I could not let Brenna go through the agony of facing Michael again, of being poisoned or whatever else he chose to do with her. Her body could not withstand his torment as it was too human and only her soul had matured to my level. Her flesh had to be able to handle the stress of splitting dimensions, sailing into a black hole and be substantive enough to endure my touch and as a spirit she could not do the things that I did.
“She must be whole, body and soul. True, I can heal her and refuse her soul. But without a body she shall go back to the Source and reincarnate. It might take her another few centuries to get back to where she is. I cannot wait that long. Michael knows this. My love might matter, but I will not risk it to sacrifice Brenna.”
